Ignorance to Awareness
Written by: Lorna Norton
Since the beginning of the Kith Homestead I’ve felt myself becoming more and more emotional. There have been a few poignant moments where I’ve felt such intense emotions in fact that I’m often left in tears;
The beauty of the patch of land we call our place.
A magical moment of light in the tree canopy.
Seeing new mushrooms/bugs/shrubs for the first time.
A child experiencing something in a special way.
A genuine moment of connection with another human (Our recent Women’s Circle folk can vouch for the real tears!)
And my co-founder and her beautiful words of motherhood.
I’m feeling such a tug between my former world of nature-loving-ignorance and the world of nature-loving-awareness, that I’m finding myself stuck and stifled.
I’ve always had a connection with nature but only recently has that been deepened. What I once thought I understood, I now realise I’m only just beginning to understand (like the intricacies of how a potato grows... really!)
I want to throw myself into a loving awareness where I honour the earth but stuck because I don’t feel like I really know how.
The real frustration is how I’m feeling an intense need to create ritual for my own spiritual journey but an even bigger intense need to put things right! My own journey to a more eco-conscious one is a slow one; toddlers just create so-much-waste! But from a nature perspective, I know more and I know I can do more. But how do I honour that and move forwards?
I feel really silly for not recognising the circular nature of natural biomes in a practical sense. It’s all very well seeing it in a book and understanding it but how to put things into real world practise?
For example, the beautiful wild flower meadow we want to plant not only has an impact on the obvious; butterflies and bees but the next level of the ecosystem, bats and larger predators which feed on the bugs. Bat numbers too are on the decline.
So... how do I proceed?
I’m not 100% sure but I know that Mother Earth will guide me. Already in the last 6 months I’ve learnt more than I realise. If I can pass on this sense of wonder and amazement, (right down to saying hello to the trees each morning), to my toddler then I think I’m on the right path.
